It's been ONE WEEK

It's been one week since you looked at meCocked your head to one side and said "I'm angry"Five days since you laughed at mesaying "get that together, come back and see me"Three days since the living roomI realized it's all my fault, but couldn't tell youYesterday you'd forgiven meBut it'll still be two days till I say I'm sorry...

lol, you know I had to bust out something witty to excuse my absence. I am working a crazy schedule right now that should calm down in May leaving me at least five days a week to write here.

I have a long more indepth post coming this week that I have been brewing over for a while. I plan to slow my life down a little starting the first week of May, I'll keep you posted.

More babies!

Today I got to watch another cutie pie in my family. Meet my little cooing friend.

I have updated my portfolio too! Make sure you check it out. I also have a Flickr account now where you can leave comments on the pics.

OOOOHHH BABY!

Today was a wonderful day. I have really been missing my family since I headed off to the windy city. and today I got to spen time with two of my favorite little people. Here's a pic, aren't they just yummy?

Tomorrow more family pics. I am GRATEFUL for my large family!

Dear Mr. Jesus

Here is a blast from the past. I am sitting here this morning drinking coffe ironing, and listening to mp3s. A song started coming out of the speakers that removed me from my adulthood and firmly planted me back into my childhood. I distinctly remember hearing this song and crying as a young adult. I remeber it being the first time I realized that the goings on in my life weren't NORMAL. Today I am grateful to no longer be a part of this world any longer, and that my son is not and never will be.

"Dear Mr. Jesus"

Dear Mr. Jesus, I just had to write to you
Something really scared me, when I saw it on the news
A story 'bout a little girl beaten black and blue
Jesus, thought I'd take this right to you
Dear Mr. Jesus, I don't understand
Why they took her mom and dad away
I know that they don't mean to hit with wild and angry hands
Tell them just how big they are I pray
Please don't let them hurt your children
We need love and shelter from the storm
Please don't let them hurt your children
Won't you keep us safe and warm
Dear Mr. Jesus, they say that she may die
Oh I hope the doctors stop the pain
I know that you could save her and take her upto the sky
So she would never have to hurt again
Please don't let them hurt your children
We need love and shelter from the storm
Please don't let them hurt your children
Won't you keep us safe and warm
Dear Mr. Jesus, please tell me what to do
And please don't tell my daddy
But my mommy hits me, too.
Please don't let them hurt your children
We need love and shelter from the storm
Please don't let them hurt your children
Won't you keep us safe and warm
Please don't let them hurt your children
We need love and shelter from the storm
Please don't let them hurt your children
Won't you keep us safe and warm

Coffeee Anyone?

I am sitting here enjoying some coffee, listening to tunes, and getting ready to start my workday again. I am staying in the house now. J came worked and cleaned her little heart out so I could get a routine going. Thus it starts.

We have some work to do here, but it is by no means like what we did in KY. I am very thankful for that. I want to enjoy the warm weather this year. With my surgery I didn't get to do that last year.

I am really starting to settle in. I started this post a while back, and I decided to finish it today.

Today, I am in a country mood. I have been listening to the Dixie Chicks, Garth, and probably The Statler Brothers next, thanks to my daddy ;)

I love a variety of tunes, it makes for a very diverse range of emotion. I like to keep my brain entertained at all times, Hmmm wonder were lil man gets his ADHD. To me a life is wasted if your brain isn't always going. Whether, I am writing, singing, playing the guitar, taking photos, I am always looking for new ideas.

This morning I was sitting here giggling over the innocence of childhood. J is really trying to keep me in the loop of life there in KY. (Yes I realize I am rambling. What made me switch gears was the list of idea searches. I thought, hmm I didn't put movies in there, then ICECREAM jumped into my head & I giggled again...) For those of you who don't know I am a HUGE comedy nut, ICECREAM come from Eddie Murphy...

Anyway, J & lil man were up here all last week and went home on Sat. They were sitting in the living room when (pardon me if I don't get it exactly correct) lil man jumped up and ran over to he window. He looked out and exclamed J! it's the ICECREAM MAN! Can I get some, can I get some please! She of course caved to that enthusiasm and told him to grab his wallet and go.

He bolted out the door and headed up the street (side note we live in the middle of a couldesac street), she yelled "lil man he'll be back down the streat is a circle", "Oh yeah" Ahhhh, the days of being overcome by excitement and not responsibility...

Anyhow the best part of the story is that he got up to the truck and stood there studying the board of choices for about 20 minutes before he ordered and ice cream that looks like a giant foot...ROFL Children will eat anything...EEEEEWWWWWWW

Thus IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIICCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCEEEEEEEEEEEEE CCCCCCCCCCCRRRRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMM

I got some ice cream and you can't get none, cuz your on welfare and can't afford it...

Sing that all day...HAR HAR

A new motto.

In a raging screaming fit the other day I decided I must exercise even more change. I just can't S C R E A M anymore. So I have adopted a new motto.

"He who has a 'why' to live, can bear with almost any 'how'."
- Friedrich Nietzsche (1844-1900)

WOW, is all I can say. I love heavy shit like that. Such a short sentence, but such a big meaning. I also like: "If you can't get rid of the skeleton in your closet, you'd best teach it to dance." - George Bernard Shaw (1856-1950)

I would like to add, "or else it will just weigh you down, and you'll be singing I can't dance, I can't walk..." LOL

The house is coming along, my girl and my roomie are working hard at the house, and I am just working hard. I picked up some OT. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz Oh I am awake now. I am in a very good mood, but tired. I am going to post a few more quotes on here & hit the hay.

"When you do the common things in life in an uncommon way, you will command the attention of the world."
- George Washington Carver (1864-1943)

"To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance"
- Oscar Wilde (1854-1900)

"A witty saying proves nothing."
- Voltaire (1694-1778)

"Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your goal."
- Henry Ford (1863-1947)

"There are people in the world so hungry, that God cannot appear to them except in the form of bread."
- Mahatma Gandhi (1869-1948)

"The instinct of nearly all societies is to lock up anybody who is truly free. First, society begins by trying to beat you up. If this fails, they try to poison you. If this fails too, they finish by loading honors on your head."
- Jean Cocteau (1889-1963)

"While we are postponing, life speeds by."
- Seneca (3BC - 65AD)

"When you have to kill a man, it costs nothing to be polite."
- Sir Winston Churchill (1874-1965)

"A little inaccuracy sometimes saves a ton of explanation."
- H. H. Munro (Saki) (1870-1916)

"If you haven't got anything nice to say about anybody, come sit next to me."
- Alice Roosevelt Longworth (1884-1980)

"Anything that is too stupid to be spoken is sung."
- Voltaire (1694-1778)

Where oh where has my time gone...

I'll tell you where. Into this old house. I just realized I hadn't posted in a week, and decided to pop in for a second and say hi. J & I (in between working) have spent the last week or so steaming and scraping anywhere from 2 - 5 layers of wall paper off of our newly purchased plaster walls. OMFG, and if that wasn't enough they wall papered the ceiling, WTF???

The house is currently in shambles, but my baby will get it back together so that I can get settled in to a routine & begin to feel like I am at HOME again.

The stress of this shit over took me last night, and I unfortunately didn't step back and evaluate what I was doing...That ALWAYS results in a fuck up for me. Let me tell you...I pride myself in not fucking up, but when I do it I do it right, REALLY BIG...

So other than this old house and nothing in it...LOL, not yet anyway, I am just grateful for my five daily's and being able to afford to live this life I lead. And when I say afford it's not monetary...